I’ve never really understood the appeal of gambling, which is why I found this account of one man’s gambling addiction to be such an interesting insight into how the gambler’s mind works.
Rather, it is how the player handles an inevitable losing streak and the extent to which he will allow losing to affect his idea of himself. After a month straight of losses, a player can become convinced that losing is his role. Going broke becomes his thing to do, his inevitable outcome. The fog of losing, which feels like a seething, dirty steam in the veins, seeps into everything.